It has been a couple of days since my first visit to my new classroom. I’ve cleaned it up, moved stuff around, and I’m trying to figure out my own classroom flow. How do I want the desks? What are my behavioral expectations? How will I communicate bits and pieces of myself for authenticity? How will I encourage students to use the library? What events can I do to encourage reading as a teacher and as a librarian?
I have tons of ideas already. As for the classroom stuff, I’m going between several ideas. A friend of mine, who is on her second year of teaching, shared with me a lesson on multiple intelligence. She also teaches 7th grade ELA. It’s kind of funny how we both wound up teaching the same grade with similar and dissimilar passions. She loves poetry, and I really like it. I love young adult fiction, and she really likes it. It’s nice to have a balance.
But. . .oops. I just pulled on a knot in my hair and many strands fell out. I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed by the start of the year. I want students to check out books, but I don’t know the system yet. I want students to feel excited to be in my classroom, but I don’t know how to encourage that yet. My room will be occupied for the entire day for a meeting. (The principal apologized profusely, and I know I can work around it. However, it’s still stress inducing.)
I think I’m just psyching myself out. Maybe. Probably. I just bought some more things for the room to make it my own. As my new mentor explained, she said I should find my own way to do things and not to follow someone else’s footsteps. However, when you’re new and nervous. . .well, then what happens? Blah. I just really, really want to do a good job. I want the kids to learn and be happy and be excited to come into the room. I know I’ll do a good job, but I don’t know if it will be good enough. I’m trying to avoid being a perfectionist here, as I am still learning. And the greater the perfectionism, the more likely I will stress over little things and miss the great accomplishments I will, hopefully, make with my students.
I was nervous teaching college, and I did it. The students learned and improved and came to appreciate writing. Which, for them, was a big step in their academic careers. I was nervous teaching my new college class this semester, but I did it.
(sigh) I just need to do my best. But also I need to spoil myself so I can make sure that I have things around me that inspire me and let me know that I’m new and no one expects me to be perfect the first year. In reality, though, I kind of want to be… Blah. I think I just need some sleep.
I cleaned the room today like crazy and made sure the tables shined. I also started organizing a bunch of other things and learned that I might be able to see my students’ sixth grade portfolios, which is great. I did find an awesome bus as well, though, that gets me to the school much sooner. And it’s comfortable. Hehe! Also, there’s a 24 hour Dunkin’ Donuts right across the street. There goes my money! . . .I just need to make sure I surround myself with good vibes. Wish me luck? (insert nervous laugh here)